kadang gw mikir knapa kita harus jadi manusia yg lbh dewasa...
mgkn waktu kecil kt ngak pernah mikir hal ini, tp mejelang kt remaja mau ke dewasa, pikiran ini mulai ada (well at least I'm thinking of it now).
jaman kt SMA, kita enjoy dengan pertemanan kt bareng2, make all the plans for future, make all the BFF promises, kebandelan2 kt, bolos skolah, dateng telat, ngerjain guru (u name it).
masuk kuliah, idup lebih bebas, ngak ada lagi aturan yg terlalu mengikat, I'll do whatever I think it's right. kbetulan gw kuliah di luar, so another privilege yg bs gw dapet, I can do whatever thing I want. gw idup bebas, tanpa ortu, tanpa larangan, tanpa smua hal. cuma langit yg membatasi.
back from oversea, gw sempet belajar bahasa k China. for me it was the best time in my life. nothing to worry, all things just happened as I wanted to. smua hal rasanya enteng, ngak ada yg jadi beban (except for the tests) tp smua itu cma sebates kertas sertifikat.
weekends gw clubbing, mabok bareng anak2 russia, maen BL smpe matahari terbit, pergi ke pantai sampe pai. sigh. andai gw bs balik lagi ke waktu itu, with exact friends and excitements.
but one time I realized that me myself should change for good. jadi smua berakhir di sini, di empat dinding ini yg kadang gw kedinginan, kepanasan, kesepian, or whatever.
sempet kerja, tp it was really sucks, gw ngak suka dengan lingkungan kerjanya, begitu juga dengan pekerjaan gw. sampai pd satu wkt pas gw mau dipindah k luar kota, so I had reason to resign.
1 bln dah lewat, tanpa pekerjaan, tanpa uang jajan, time just goes by without waiting for me. pengen gw skola lg, cma semua tinggal kenangan. karna satu dan lain hal yg mnurut gw hanya mementingkan diri mreka sndiri. so I think now I will just sit straight and just wait for good things that I hope will come to me anytime soon.
smua end up dengan 1 pertanyaan, knapa kita harus menjadi dewasa, why life has to be more and more complicated? i guess the answer would be, because the nature told us to .
regards,
J . D . K
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